In the beginning..

27 Feb

When I was coming up, the school system did not have the “Headstart” Program… I was fortunate enough to have my Grandma, the late Malissa Blow Perkins, as my first teacher. Then their is pre-school and so on… 


I was home thinking about my life and when it all began. It actually began, at the age of 2, everything has a beginning, and and we all we’re taught in some form or another. And, who we are today is a reflection of who taught us.


My Mom tells me all the time,  when I bitch and complain, about the behavior of some folk around my age or older, or should I say… Over 30.


Why this… Why that… 


And she say’s to me, ” Everyone was not raised the way you were.”, So for some they clearly don’t know any better. For example,  letting the old lady have your seat on the bus. Or when grown folk are having a conversation, kids leave the room.. You get what I’m saying.. 


I’m sooo blessed to have been raised in that era where the village helped raise me. All 10 of my Aunties, 3 Uncles, a Mom and a Dad. And hell I didn’t mention my Great Aunties & Uncles. Who most of you have met, they taught me values, morals, respect, hard work, compassion, and most importantly love. 


In my household like the bar, I was surrounded by people of all walks of life. Blacks, whites, straight, gay, people of Muslim faith, etc.. Just good people. So its easy for me to entertain all people many years later.


You want to hear something funny? I respect the beginning so much that I’m the person that picks up a penny if I see it on the ground, and actually get excited about it. When most people will walk by the penny, toss a penny or if you are in a store, and your change maybe 3 cents you might say don’t worry about it keep it. 


I understand the penny because in order to get to 1 billion, guess where it started…


We are living in an age now where we want to skip the beginning and go straight to the billion, but in order for you to respect the billion you must respect the penny.


Learning is a must, and all those Aunties and Uncles, Mom, Dad, Grandma, used to tell me all the time. Your never to old to learn.. I totally get it, I also believe at some point depending on your age we become teachers and put what was taught to good use by teaching young folk what they may have missed growing up.


It’s a wonderful feeling sharing what I have learned, yet still learning. Not knowing that I have become a role model to so many young folk without even knowing it. However I am, who I am, all started with a beginning. 


Aside 23 Jan

A Winner… Well one would think we all want to win.


The reality is, some win and some lose. I asked myself what makes a winner?


I have been watching winners all my life not realizing they were my teachers. What I learned is winners never quit. A winner fights to the very end.


Its not that a winners journey is any easier, a winner preserves and endures to the end. In 2014 I’m also speaking things that are not as though they were. Hell my girl Ne-Ne Leaks said it best. I’m rich bitch. She spoke it into existence.


Much respect to those who dare to, when seemingly the odds are against you, and you feel like giving up or you didn’t have a clue that the journey would be so hard. 


How much time are we putting into our crafts, gifts, purpose & how much time are we focusing on funerary, bullshit and dealing with motherfuckers who don’t give a shit weather your ass was dead or fucking alive.


It’s all coming to me now, not saying it in a bragotious way. I am a winner. I know exactly what I want, and better late that never, I’m going to use the gifts that god gave me to take me exactly where I’m supposed to be. 



I won’t quit.. at times I’m scared and feel like giving up. But I can’t quit, with you all behind me encouraging me rooting and praying for me, it keeps me going.


What I love about the new America, it includes people like myself. As fucked up as it appears to be, it is the land of opportunity. Not being a quitter, I will win! Let’s practice saying those exact words knowing, we are to Legit to Quit!



Aside 10 Jan

Have a great 2014, be in it to win it! 


Blog post coming soon…

12 Dec


So much going on which is a good thing.. I couldn’t imagine waking up everyday and there was absolutely nothing going on, or should I say, nothing to do.. 


During the holiday season I always get this feeling of gratefulness. Grateful that I made it this far as we get closer to 2014.  


It’s been a good year pretty challenging as well, but I’ve made it through. Thank God-almighty. 


Wishful thinking, yes I was at Safeway and stopped to pick up my mega million lottery ticket as well and in my car while driving to work I thought of a million things I would do with that $400 million dollars, oh well. Like I said wishful thinking, in the meantime I’m grateful for what I’ve been blessed with and most importantly my brain still works! So whether I win or not I must continue to use my brain to stay in business another year.


I love you all so much! 



Aside 3 Dec


Can you believe it?! 


It’s Thanksgiving already… 


Man… where does time go? Like the old folk used to say, time waits for no man. Even though things have changed a lot in the past few years when it comes to  celebrating the holidays its become very commercial. 


I don’t necessarily like the change… But it is what it is… 


What I have embraced, is my blended family. I am hosting Thanksgiving this year at the house and what I have noticed in my personal life I tend to spend more time with my blended family than my blood relatives. I used to have the mindset “No new friends..” but after meeting such great people at the bar who have been more supportive than some of blood relatives could or would have ever been it gave me a different mindset.


I have been fortunate to actually have both which in most cases is unheard of, great parents, aunts, uncles, and some cousins who we truly adore each other. I’ve also been truly blessed with a whole new group of folk who have shown me lots of love throughout the past 3 to 4 years, and I love and adore them just as much. And would be very disappointed if I did not celebrate these joyus holidays with them as well.


Think about it my friends are my family.


Enjoy your holiday and celebrate with people you love.


Aside 14 Nov

You know what… Enough about me and my thoughts.. If you are as truthful with yourself as I am, I would love to hear from you individually. Let me know how you really feel; it can be family or work related, or hell just life point blank period.. 


I love you all




7 Nov

It’s me again, I hope you all don’t mind being my listening ear, being as though I can’t afford a therapist, lol! Everyday I’m alive it’s a learning process and the older I become the wiser I’m becoming. 


With a few bumps here and there, I’m getting it though. 


I’m guilty of a lot of things, I must admit.. None of which I’m ashamed of just breaking those chains slowly but surely that sometimes keeps me bound. 


Being a small business owner/entrepreneur it really showed me my true strengths and put the spotlight on my weaknesses. I found myself complaining a lot which is something I never used to do I was taught at an early age to never complain but lately it seems hard not too.


When in reality I’m dealing with so many obstacles, but on the positive side when I look around and see how fortunate I am. There’s no room for complaints. 


Truthfully speaking at times I’m scared I will fail, I’ve had sleepless nights hoping and praying that I make it. 


Coming from a very humble beginning with no financial backing, just working with the blank canvas I was given and being creative as hell! I still can’t believe it sometimes, Darnell’s that little place that sits on the corner of Florida and W, wow. 


I meet people everyday, some of which theres an instant connection its like love at first sight, and then they’re those that grow on me, I didn’t necessarily understand them in the beginning but they’re cool! 


Then its the other group, we’re not even going to talk about them..


I said all of that to say… whomever you are… weather you started out with me from the beginning, middle, or present… In my world, you’ve served your purpose.


Is there a reason for me to ever complain?


Hell to the FUCK NO!  I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.