Archive | September, 2013
Aside 26 Sep

I had great intentions to change somethings since the last time you all read this. Do you remember I was talking about my bad habits?  Well, since then nothing has changed.. Still smoking cigarettes, still eating the wrong shit and some other things I care not to discuss at this present time. Well at least I tried, and will continue to recognize there is a problem. And hopefully one of these days I will be be writing, “I used to….”. 


I love y’all, and thanks for listening,





12 Sep

I have a confession to make, nahhhhhhhhh.


 Y’all not ready for that! 


Or, should I say, I’m not ready to reveal my bad habits! 


But I will say I do have some very bad habits and when you’re my age with bad habits, they are definitely hard to break. 


Smoking cigarettes is one of them, I don’t know why I can not break that habit. But I told myself, “Self, as we approach 2014 that will not be a part of your make up.”, -Darnell the smoker.


 I’m not a specialist, I can only speak on how I feel. I do feel that bad habits can effect you in many ways. For example, some of the company we keep, yea people can also be a bad habit. You have been around these people for so long, that even you don’t want to realize that theres a difference between the two. Or you can say you’ve out grown each other, yea that can be possible, but how is that possible when you know you should be somewhere else, doing something else, or with someone else. 


A lot of times I’m scared, yes I’m scared, because I know better, and I also know there is better… And, until we break these bad habits our “better”, will never see fruition. 


Thanks for listening, I love you.


Aside 5 Sep

I know it’s been a while, I’ve been very busy at the bar of course. And, also taking care of my terminally ill Dad. 


Yea, its a lot, but I manage to get everything done. 


Even though sometimes I am very tired God gives me strength to do all that needs to be done.


I truly believe that both growth and maturity comes with age and the universal class of hard knock life. Some pass with flying colors, some barely make it through, but at some point they end up getting it. And, then they’re those who no matter what will do the same shit every day of their lives, same story, same bullshit, just a different day. And for what ever reason never seem to catch a break. 


A lot of times these are people we either grew up with or at one time or another had a close relationship with and in some cases even our relatives. 


I can only speak for myself not saying its wrong or right there are some conversations that I once had with friends or acquaintances that for many years wouldn’t bother me. But, now I’m all grown up and have a million things to do on a daily basis. My tolerance for idle conversation is zero..


It’s still a lot I need to accomplish and projects that need to be completed. 


What I’ve learned is that, when you focus on yourself, making sure that you are spiritually and financially stable and capable of taking care of yourself. It is definitely a full time job.


So really your not interested in hearing about someones up’s, or downs. Of course I’m happy for you when things are going well, and my heart is sad when things are not.


We all have those days.


It’s time for us all to grow up, and stop whining and complaining about what was and whats now. Let’s do our best to make it, the best way possible.


It’s so important to pass life’s lessons earlier on. When you are young its expected to be young, dumb and foolish, but when you are in the same place in your life at 40, that you were when you were in your teens or twenties. Thats a major problem. I’ve heard that I’ve changed, the answer is “Yes I have changed!”, I’sa grown now!. I know the ingredients that makes up Darnell and foolishness is not one of them. 


Remember, whats best for you is not necessarily best for me.


Question; Do you even know whats best for you?